Panic Attacks

As it states in my header I have a lot of problems that I have to deal with. The biggest one that continuously targets me is my panic disorder. Mayo Clinic describes panic disorder as: "...a sudden episode of intense fear that triggers severe physical reactions when there is no real danger or apparent cause." (for more info click here) I deal with panic attacks, because of the enormous amount of trauma and problems I went through as a young child. When it first became known that those intense moments of anxiety and fear were panic attacks I was able to pinpoint what was triggering them. Lately, there have been several times that I have been unable to pinpoint the exact cause of them. Those ones are the scariest and most frustrating ones out of all of them.

For the longest time panic disorder seems to have had complete control over my life. I avoided doing things and being with people that I thought might trigger an attack. Three days ago I very seriously decided I was no longer going to allow this disorder to control my life. Of course because I made this decision and acted on it every single thing that could send my anxiety into a spiraling course of panic...happened. Let me add that I am not on medication for this condition at all. I don't frown on people who choose to take them, but not taking them felt like the right decision for me. My mom and my doctor suggested a yeast control diet (I'll go into detail about this diet in another post) to help regulate my system so that my body would respond to panic in a healthier way. Having been on this before, but the not the full allotted time I know how I react to it. I'm ready to try it again. Full force.

This journey towards full emotional healing is going to be a long one, but all I can do is look forward to the future. That will be the ultimate thing helping me get passed this. These panic attacks happen because of events from the past. The future is full of so much hope, peace, and tranquility. I am using this blog to help me see my own progress, but I hope it might reach someone who may be dealing with one of these issues themselves.